Struggle

Everybody struggles against something. Something inside that threatens to consume them if left untethered. Sometimes, you think you have it under control. You think that you can actually survive without it, go on without it, live without it. But you're wrong. Temptation is always there, how do you fight it?

Just when you thought your life is going well, that you're leaving that hateful person you were behind - WHAM - you're back at square one. All the progress you've done means nothing once you succumb to your addiction, to your vices.

You sit there alone, awake and empty in the middle of the night. There is no one to help you, no one to hear you out, no one to comfort you. Because this demon within you is your own secret, nobody knows - and you have to deal with it yourself. But how do you fight against it? You're weak, pathetic, unworthy.

So what do you do after temptation overwhelms you? You grope your way back to the surface, slowly rebuild the life that you yearn piece by piece. The foundation is crumbling, the bricks loose, it is just stacked up poorly - an insignificant defense. Is it even worth continuing when such a facade is no match for the dark wave that is bound to wash over it, crushing all that you have built so far?

So what do you do? Do you sit there, resigned - letting the opressive wave crush you, carry you and define your life the way it wants. Or do you continue, strenghtening your building blocks each time, bracing yourself against the blow, forcing yourself for the sake of living?

What do you do?

Cherating Beach

So currently I'm chilling out at The Legend Resort's lounge at Cherating, leeching off their wi-fi. It's so relaxing here. All my murderous and violent thoughts are gone and I'm filled with an overwhelming desire for world peace and a banana split sundae. Beaches have that effect on you. I could spend infinity hours basking by the pool (away from the sun of course, sunburn is my worst enemy), letting the breeze run through my hair, breathing in the salty smell of the sea and letting myself indulge in silly daydreams. You tend to get very drowsy and lazy when exposed to the beach for too long, or maybe that's just my nature. Well, it's very close to paradise here and I can't wait to drag along a few friends for a much needed vacation here.

Trip Back To Terengganu - So Far So Good

Finally! A decent internet connection! Currently, I'm hanging out with my dad and sister at East Coast Mall's Starbucks, sipping on Toffee Nut Latte while shamelessly perusing their wi-fi for blogging purposes. I officially love my N82, now I can blog on the go, how cool is that?! Anyway, I travelled to Terengganu two days ago by bus. It was an uneventful journey but I was lucky enough to not have a passenger beside me. This means that I can sit like a trishaw rider without offending anyone, scratch myself at odd places without earning stern looks and hog the seats as much as I want. I whiled away the journey entertaining myself with vivid daydreams and music. I amused myself looking at the bizarre signboards in Kuantan too. Either the people here have a really weird sense of humour or a lack of creative juices because they came up with names such as HotMale Cafe (a cyber cafe), Tuisyen Adabi and Tuisyen Kambing. The last one had me laughing out loud! Do they educate young billy goats there or do they teach humans the way of the goat? Well, upon arrival at my home in Kemaman, I decided to do my dad some community service and bring the dogs for a walk and to satisfy the call of nature. It was terrible. X'ter the 2nd dragged me around the neighbourhood and pulled me into a puddle. I was screaming and running behind that donkey of a dog, hanging onto the leash for dear life. It didn't help that my sister was laughing her head off, I must have looked like a fool. The assault didn't stop there, Dusky stomped on my foot with his clawed paw and Ranger kept on showing me his butt. I feel so loved. The next day, we went for breakfast - fish noodle soup - one of my favourite dishes ever! It's only exclusive to seaside towns in the East Coast. It's simply delicious, hot steaming fish broth served with noodles of your choice, a plate of fish and fish crackers. Yummy! Needless to say, I've been eating a lot of fish here. One thing I've noticed is, there are so many tomyam restaurants here but fast food restaurants are a rarity. Interesting. There are also a lot of roadkill to be seen, I saw a dead cow. T_T Well, so far I'm enjoying myself. Hope to update soon. Happy Holidays everyone! ^_^

MPT6 Dinner

Something kookie is going on with my Friendster blog so I guess I'll just update the MPT6 blogpost here. We had our MPT6 Dinner yesterday, 13th of December at KGSSAAS's Pool Side. Although the attendance was poor and the party was FAR from happening, I did have fun because my closest friends were there. The theme of the night was Glamorous, therefore imagine my horrified bewilderment when I saw Varman wearing a pair of cargo pants, I was like, "What in blazes..?"

So anyway, this particular dude Varman was in for some surprises for the evening. He was supposed to be our ride for the Dinner but ditched us unceremoniously. Hence, we came up with a less than original plan to spike his drink with salt. I distracted him by pretending to ask him to get me some fruits when in fact I already had an unfinished plate on the table. Jaya dumped the whole contents of the salt shaker into his drink, leaving a lot of precipitate at the bottom. In accordance with the partition coefficient, the equilibrium between the salt and syrup has exceeded the constant of solubility causing the remaining salt to be undissolved. Zac proposed a toast, in pretense to get Varman to drink his tampered syrup. End of story, plan succeeded and we had a huge laugh. Shamu was literally choking with laughter.

The Lower Sixes had devised some methods of torture for us in the form of a treasure hunt and the much dreaded poison box game. Hmm, wait a minute, didn't we do the exact same thing for them during their orientation? Copycats! Get some originality-lah! My group which consisted of Jean, Jaya, Shamu, Seh Ming and Malik won the treasure hunt, we found nine items. We had to throw around a newspaper ball for the poison box game and honestly, the only fun part about that was the random throwing.

I got two gifts from the lucky draw and I scavenged a bowl from the treasure hunt prize. Basically, I just ended up with a lot of glassware. After the whole thing, we camwhored the night away, taking pictures with anybody and nobody. Although it was truly a boring event [come on, only one teacher attended which was Pn. Hasni - what does that tell you about how much we mean to the teachers?] it was made fun because of the company we had and the funny moments and crazy jokes throughout the night. Oh well, guess that was it for the MPT6 Dinner, just came and went. Hopefully we are able to plan a reunion event soon.

Family - Random Emo Post

I was hanging out with one of my best friends Lolly today after a shopping spree. [Yay, I've finally gotten all the things I need for my dinner, yay me! ^_^] Her dad and mom picked us up and we went shopping for paint and cement because they're renovating their house right now. We went to TTDI Jaya and a pang of dull sorrow throbbed through me as I caught sight of my school. [TTDI Jaya will always be MY school, SSAAS is just THE school - Hehe...] Anyway, this post is not about how much I miss my alma mater so I shall continue on. I hung out at Lolly's place for a while because haven't been there for oh-so-long, that place is practically my second home. Today is her parents' anniversary and a florist delivered a basket of flowers to her mother just as we were getting down from the car. [Her dad was struggling with this 50kg packet of cement but the florist who is so thin and small sized and is 62 years old just carried it selambe only - what a dude!] So yeah, went in for some tea and I actually had a good time chatting and laughing with them, I always do. I didn't realize that I was subconsciously disturbed until I reached home.

Basically, I started thinking about my own family. I admit it, I'm jealous. But not in a oh-I-want-to-wreak-havoc-on-you type of way, more of a I-want-it-too type of way. Her family is so normal and together and happy and her parents are so loving towards each other. It just made the fact that distance separates mine even more apparent. My parents are not divorced or anything, don't get me wrong. It's just that I moved here when I was in Standard Four for certain reasons and my dad stayed back in Terengganu to work. Things have just been like that ever since. Getting to see my dad is like a privilege not often to be had. But when I do see him, it's definitely one of the happiest moments of my life. Not that I'm not happy when I'm with my mom, she's awesome. Having both of them together at the same time is a phenomenal feeling.

Sometimes I wonder, if my dad was here with me all the time, maybe I wouldn't have turned out to be a juvenile delinquent when I was in secondary school. Maybe I would have been a better person, a more worthy person. It keeps bugging me, wondering what could have been. Family occasions are never complete, there's always something missing.

Maybe that's one of the reasons I love Terengganu so much, partially because of the beautiful white beaches, the scrumptious keropok lekor, the beautiful star-filled sky at night but mostly because my dad is there. Terengganu is the only place where I can ever feel like I belong in a family, it's the place where I feel happy and normal for once. Although I don't like it for a variety of reasons such as my allergy to dog hair kicks up when I'm there, it's eff-ing boring there, freaking hot or rainy most of the time, the shopping mall there is worse than PKNS, Streamyx sucks even more there etc. However, I'll endure it - no big deal.

My sister and mom left for Terengganu today, I'll be leaving myself in four days time but right now, I feel so lonely without my sister cracking lame jokes beside me. So unfair! They get to go before me... T_T
Sometimes I wonder what my dad feels, living there alone with those three humongous dogs to keep him company [Dusky, Ranger and X'Ter the 2nd]. He calls us every night through video call for about half an hour and we joke and laugh and all that. But at the same time, it's just his voice and face I'm seeing. I can't whack his round tummy or play with his balding hair [hopefully technology advances far enough to be able to allow contact through phones - right].

Well, I guess I'm feeling better now that I've blogged about it. I'm finally able to be honest with myself and let it all go. No more pretending to be okay and faking for me, I'm sick of that. Thankfully it won't be long before I join them at Terengganu, yay me! ^_^

P.S. Please do appreciate your family, no matter how annoying or pesky some of them may be. Life is short [cliche] so if you don't start appreciating them now, when will you?

P.P.S Owh gosh, look at me - I've turned into an emo-freak! Giving out advice on family bonds and ties kononnya. Okay okay back to normal already. Toodles!

T.I. - Whatever You Like

This song has been running through my mind like 24/7. I'll put it on my music player and listen to it for hours on end, it's my phone's message ringtone and I grab the Bim Bim at random moments and dance with him to this song. I love it! It's got an awesome tune although I don't get much of the lyrics. But yeah, "You can have whatever you like, you can have whatever you like, yeah~~~"

I don't in any way support the portrayal of a female in this video, it's too materialistic and gold-digger for me. It was funny though. Love it!

Some Insane Friendster Comments

I was feeling extremely bored so I decided to look through my old Friendster comments. Wow, I just remembered that I used to send a whole truckload of testimonials to Kim on a daily basis and there were some pretty funny and insane ones in between the rude ones. Here are some that I dug out.

4/11/2005 11:39 pm
Reference : My Friendster page,
Testimonial dated 9th April 2005, Saturday.
Subject : A Matter Of Confusion.
Dukacita dimaklumkan that referring to
the above matter, I would like to
question the afiirmity of your statement
in my Friendster page. I am, if not the
least, confused with your statement
which goes : I have read the testimonial
you gave me lately and *sigh, your
turning into me.
After considerable research, I have
discovered that there is no substantial
proof holding up your statement of me.
And so, I would like to call upon my
attorney, Madam Coco Pie to advise
me upon suing you regarding improper
use of language with the intention to
harm whether directly or indirectly,
emotionally, mentally or physically or
even to shatter my firm reputation as a
civilised citizen. Therefore, this letter
also serves as a summon to meet me in
the courtroom (Alam Flora, Ground
Floor, Block D, SMKTTDI Jaya) with our
respective attorneys to further discuss
this case. Fare Thee Well.

12/1/2004 8:29 pm
err... i think i scared off ur bf liao...
anyways... stare deep into the computer
screen... stare deep.. deep... ur now
feelin sleepy... sleepy.. when i count to
three.. you will be under my power and
obey my every whim and command...
one.. two.. three... good... now
standup... walk towards the kitchen ....
open the back door... turn to the left...
walk straight ahead towards the four
unsightly fat blobs in the stinky cage in
front of you... lift them up with ur
tremendous strength and bring them to
ur next door neighbours house... present
it to them as a dinner present... when i
snap my fingers.. u will 4get everything
tht has happened and u wnt rmbr that u
even owned four aliens before...
SNAP... hye kim!!! joy here... jus wanna
wish u a good day!! goodbye!!

11/18/2004 10:28 pm
IDIOSA!!!! u dare insult me in our
enemy's page...? have u lost ur mind...?
thts it.. u r now placed under
PROBATION... the probation period will
only end after you hve proved tht u
deserve the post of most respectable
vice president of OHIC... if u fail.. then i
shall knight jean instead and thou shall
be degraded to a mere juru audit... so
there

11/4/2004 8:43 pm
heres sumthin fo' u... i composed it ya
kno!!! hehe... feel honourd or sumtin
kay...

-> A Gothic Mind <-
Flakes of depression at the edge of your vision
You search for it, welcome it, cause its a unique dark fusion
The complicative and mysterious mind of a goth
Deep in thought, perceptive, demented, and so on and so forth
Its not the exception we create, its the difference we make
When we exist in this world where everyones a fake
This turbulence of emotions swirling in my subconscious
Its choking me, holding me, its making me nauseous
But what is there to do for an outcast of society
But to sit and accept and contemplate your fate and destiny...

Kay, gave u mine.. hit me back...

Damn, I'm missing those crazy moments that I had with all my besties back in secondary school. At the very least, I have these memories to give me a good laugh now and then. Love you guys! ^_^

Emo Songs To Soothe The Soul

I was feeling kind of down today and one thing that I simply MUST do in moments of emo-ness is listen to emo songs. There's at least one song that suits every single reason for being depressed and I've made an incomplete list of songs that accompanies me while I wallow in self-pity.

1. Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You
Suitable for people who are in a relationship and are madly in love. It's not even an emo song but it's got a heart touching tune to it.

2. James Blunt - 1973
Appropriate for old people who are reminiscing of their clubbing days in the year 1973. If you know someone by the name of Simona then this is the song for you.

3. No Doubt - Don't Speak
Should be listened by people who just experienced a bad breakup. Damn, this was my theme song in Form 5. T_T

4. Avril Lavigne - Losing Grip
This song will be enjoyed by girls who feel neglected by their boyfriends. One of my favourites.

5. Billy Talent - Pins And Needles
A song from my absolutely favourite punk rock band. The music is capable of inducing tears at random moments.

6. My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You
This is a heartbreaking song but it's good for inspiring people to move on after a breakup.

7. Eagle Eye Cherry - Save Tonight
This song helps to cheer me up sometimes. It's sort of reminiscent of the good times I used to have.

8. Nelly Furtado - Try
Feel like you're always beaten down even after giving your all? Feel like your best efforts are never enough? This is the song for you!

9. Backstreet Boys - Inconsolable
No emo session is complete without Backstreet Boys, who else sings about rejected passions, unspoken desires and soppy love stories? The title says it all, I'm Inconsolable so leave me alone.

10. Snow - Sakasama No Chou
The tune is just so effing sad. *starts sobbing uncontrollably*

11. Jackie Chan & Kim - Endless Love
Okay, so I'm kind of embarassed to have this song on my playlist but The Myth is one of my favourite movies! This song is beautiful because I imagine it to be about a love that lasts for eternity [like the movie]. *sigh*

12. P.Diddy Feat. Keri - After Love
Sick of love? Tired of getting hurt? Yeap, listen to this.

13. Papa Roach - Last Resort
I listen to this song when I'm pissed off. I'll start banging my head around and kicking out at random objects. It helps though.

14. Pearl Jam - Last Kiss
Oh where oh where can my baby be? The Lord took her away from me... She's gone to heaven so I got to be good. So I can see my baby when I leave... This world. [argh!]

15. The Veronicas - Leave Me Alone
Another one of my emo songs reserved for moments of anger.

16. Simple Plan - Save You
This song describes me in a million and one ways.

17. Disagree - Suicide Note
Don't worry, I've never been anywhere close to killing myself. But this song is moody and suits people in depression. Err, better not listen to it if you're suicidal though.

18. System Of A Down - Lonely Day
Can I just start off by saying that I love this song? Everybody feels lonely at times, this song is my way out.

19. Nana Mizuki - Hime Murasaki
This is the ending theme of my favourite anime ever, Basilisk and I love it because it has the most beautiful and tortured ending. T_T

20. Sum 41 - Pieces
I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.
If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

[The ultimate song for emo-ing]

Well, that was a list of some of the songs that blast through my speakers when I feel unhappy, hope you like them too!

I <3 Prince Nuada!

Joy loves Prince Nuada! If you've watched Hellboy 2: The Golden Army then you'll recognize him as the HAWT elf prince who plays the role of badass in the movie. Here's a whole blogpost dedicated to Prince Nuada! *dreams*

Reasons why I shriek and hyperventilate whenever I see Prince Nuada:

1. He looks like a thwarted version of Legolas Greenleaf.
I love Legolas from The Lord Of The Rings but having an evil bad boy version of him is supreme bliss!

2. He can do a million and one somersaults both backwards AND forwards.
His fight scenes are awesome and kind of dizzying to watch because this dude has the ability to twirl, turn, cartwheel, somersault and flip while still managing to look cool all at the same time. Maybe he had a part-time job as an acrobat during the summer. How HAWT is that?!

3. He knows kungfu and uses a menacing looking lance.
Prince Nuada Silverlance, so he is called. His fighting skills is a cross between Jet Li and The Matrix. His silver lance is effing cool, it's retractable and shrinks to a small machete looking weapon. I want one too!

4. He's got a hot body.
Need I say more? *drools*

Okay, so I can go on and on for a whole eight hours bragging about Prince Nuada so I thought showing you this clip of him may explain my fascination. I love Prince Nuada!

Disclaimer: This clip is not made by me, it's from legendarysannin65 on YouTube. Credits go to this dude who did an amazing job portraying Prince Nuada in all his glory.

I'm Bunny-Phobic

If you're a close friend of mine, you would know that one of the things that Joy is extremely afraid of and will freak out embarassingly whenever in close vicinity of are rabbits. It seems irrational but believe me, my fear has deep psychological roots. As I was peacefully sleeping one night sometime five years ago, I was haunted by a terrifying nightmare. In it, I was walking down the stairs in my school building dressed in my school uniform [baju kurung]. In my dream, there was a dead rabbit in my pocket, it was pure white and had red eyes. I was totally scared because I couldn't take it out of my pocket and had to walk around school with it. Imagine having to have a dead rabbit in your pocket, isn't that scary enough?! Ever since then, I have an incurable fear of rabbits. [Especially white ones with red eyes.]
Ironically enough, I had to take care of Kim's rabbits for her when she went to Langkawi for a vacation. That was one of the biggest sacrifices I've ever made for a friend. Kim, you'd better remember this until your dying day! [LoLZ] I still remember that one of the naughty rabbits escaped from the cage and I was too scared to catch it so I had to get help from my grandfather to do it. My grandfather [dengan penuh bergaya] just carried the rabbit by the ears and throw back in the cage while I was in the background, screaming for my life. [Oh, err. He was really gentle though Kim, hehe...] I don't know if my fear has been cured over the years as I haven't been near any rabbits [or have any reason to] over the years. It's one of the most funniest moments of my life though and I'm sure my friends will remember that as one of my defining weaknesses.
Here are some funny chatlogs that I dug out from my computer as an example of my revulsion towards rabbits. [P.S. These are conversations from five years back]

Most of my heated discussions involving the origins of rabbits take place between Kim and me, so the person I am talking to below is Kim. ^_^

NyMpHoMaNiC : Joy

[11:30:48 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: oh and silinde seregon.. i wanna ask u
sumthin
[11:30:51 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: do u like rabbits?
[11:30:54 PM] ...whiffs of: yu wee oh yu wee.. where r u?
[11:31:03 PM] B r | g h t : lol
[11:31:09 PM] B r | g h t : why ask about rabbit now?
[11:31:14 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: just answer... NOW
[11:31:52 PM] B r | g h t : dunno wor
[11:31:59 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: kim.. ur not allowed to influence his
answer
[11:32:02 PM] B r | g h t : i dont hate thats it
[11:32:04 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: YOU MUST ANSWER!!!!!!!!
[11:32:11 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: KIM!!!!!!!!!!! what did u say to him
[11:32:14 PM] B r | g h t : becoz of kim house of rabbit ah?
[11:32:20 PM] B r | g h t : got*
[11:32:24 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: yea.. no i must tell u the truth
[11:32:26 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: its not rabbits
[11:32:43 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: they are actually mutated lifeforms fr an
unidentified planet 1500 light years from Pluto
[11:32:46 PM] ...whiffs of: 8-)
[11:32:58 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: so i advise you not to go too near to
them...
[11:33:06 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: have you watched Alien VS Predator?
[11:33:13 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: the rabbits are sumthin like the aliens
[11:33:33 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: yea.. i kno, they might seem harmless and
innocent.. but jic.. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED>>>
[11:33:36 PM] ...whiffs of: i'm innocent
[11:33:39 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: :[ :[ :[
[11:34:04 PM] B r | g h t : swt..
[11:34:06 PM] ...whiffs of: they're innocent..
[11:34:09 PM] B r | g h t : rabbit means that alot?
[11:34:19 PM] ...whiffs of: they're so cute!
[11:34:36 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: ... i have no more comments...
[11:34:47 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: i have told the truth, the whole truth and
nothing but the truth
[11:35:03 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: and i leave it up to all of you guys
better judgement to decide
[11:35:40 PM] B r | g h t : Rabbit are Cute ma
[11:35:45 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: !!!
[11:35:48 PM] B r | g h t : what you like then?
[11:35:48 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: Are you mad?!?
[11:35:49 PM] B r | g h t : tiger?
[11:35:53 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: Oh my God!
[11:35:55 PM] B r | g h t : or lion?
[11:35:57 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: SPIDERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[11:36:01 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: SPIDERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[11:36:05 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: ARACHNIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[11:36:08 PM] B r | g h t : Lol
[11:36:09 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: ARACHNIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[11:36:10 PM] ...whiffs of: *sigh
[11:36:20 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: they r also a fact of life
[11:36:27 PM] B r | g h t : i think i need to make a call to tanjong
rambutan
[11:36:28 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: and iguana lizards are particularly
lovely
[11:36:40 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: wow.. ur finally getting to know me
[11:36:49 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: kim, dint u warn him beforehand about me?
[11:37:01 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: u see im here back fr tanjong rambutan for
the school holidays maa
[11:37:12 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: im the top achiever there
[11:37:14 PM] B r | g h t : ....
[11:37:20 PM] ...whiffs of: god help me..
[11:37:23 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: Muahahahaha!


[11:45:45 PM] ...whiffs of: look joy.. look!!!!
[11:45:53 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: (h5)(h5)(h5)(h5)(h5)
[11:46:01 PM] ...whiffs of: so cute!!!!!!!!
[11:46:06 PM] ...whiffs of: as in my display u!
[11:46:13 PM] B r | g h t : lol
[11:46:15 PM] B r | g h t : a dog?
[11:46:20 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: YUCKS!!!!!!!!!
[11:46:24 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: its a babi goreng
[11:46:26 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: !!!!!!!!!!!!!
[11:46:31 PM] ...whiffs of: its a bunny!!!!!!
[11:46:32 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: kim dnt use ur food as disp pic laa
[11:46:37 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: eeeyyyerrrr
[11:46:42 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: meremang bulu roma
[11:46:46 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: yucks yucks
[11:46:50 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: +o(
[11:46:57 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: Oh my God!
[11:47:39 PM] B r | g h t : Oh My God..
[11:47:46 PM] B r | g h t : joy eyes got problem 1
[11:47:48 PM] ...whiffs of: i'm bored... *sigh again... for the twnty
thousand time
[11:47:51 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: !!!
[11:47:54 PM] B r | g h t : rabbit can see until babi o
[11:48:03 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: My patience has its limits...
[11:48:14 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: well they do resemble each other
[11:48:20 PM] B r | g h t : your patience has its limits as if i care
[11:49:41 PM] ...whiffs of: *sigh...
[11:49:45 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: its just an emotion sound laa
[11:50:23 PM] ...whiffs of: i'm feeling depressed again.. joy.. cheer
me up pweese!!
[11:50:48 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: u wanna b happy?
[11:50:51 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: easy only...
[11:51:05 PM] NyMpHoMaNiC_: kill the four blobby funguses on ur
backporch

Feel Good Inc.: Joy

[11:32:19 AM] ...inside ur: how's milk pudding..
[11:32:43 AM] Feel Good In: ... fine.. but milk shakes genitals are
still swollen
[11:32:53 AM] ...inside ur: eew..
[11:33:11 AM] Feel Good In: wargh theres a game on newgrounds called
bunnykill
[11:33:18 AM] Feel Good In: im guessing its about killing rabbits
[11:33:24 AM] Feel Good In: my life is complete!!!!!!
[11:33:29 AM] Feel Good In: Muahahahaha!
[11:33:31 AM] ...inside ur: swt
[11:33:43 AM] ...inside ur: Are you mad?!?
[11:33:49 AM] Feel Good In: :[ :[ :[
[11:34:04 AM] ...inside ur: Oh my God!
[11:37:46 AM] ...inside ur: anyways.. myabe milk pudding is preggers..
wait.. is milk pdding the guy or the girll
[11:37:59 AM] Feel Good In:
guy.....................................................
.....................
[11:38:09 AM] Feel Good In: and im scared of pregnant hamsters
[11:38:14 AM] Feel Good In: after what u guys told me
[11:38:14 AM] ...inside ur: oh.. but he bit u rite?
[11:38:17 AM] Feel Good In: yes
[11:38:23 AM] Feel Good In: :|



[12:01:15 PM] ...inside ur: wat does ur arse have to do with my
bunny.. my bunny is noble..
[12:01:22 PM] Feel Good In: muahahahahaha
[12:01:22 PM] ...inside ur: ur butt is well.. longkang-ish
[12:01:26 PM] Feel Good In: now thats a joke
[12:01:36 PM] ...inside ur: Muahahahaha!
[12:01:45 PM] Feel Good In: ur bunny defnitely DOES NOT smell like
chanl#5 whatever that is
[12:01:51 PM] Feel Good In: so i demand u change ur nickname
[12:02:00 PM] Feel Good In: b4 i charge u under Penal code135
[12:02:17 PM] Feel Good In: for using false information regarding
barbaric aliens
[12:02:59 PM] ...inside ur: it does... chanel no 5 is a perfume.. and
my sister wears it.. she ugged my bunny.. and now bunny
smells like tht.. wth a mix of carrot..
[12:03:50 PM] Feel Good In: yux.. i hope they die of allergy ...
[12:04:06 PM] ...inside ur: swt disgusting
[12:04:31 PM] Feel Good In: i knew ur sister was with the force and
the barbaric aliens was with the dark side all along!
[12:04:35 PM] Feel Good In: :[ :[ :[
[12:04:43 PM] ...inside ur: swt
[12:05:00 PM] Feel Good In: speechless? i know the truth hurts but its
time to face it
[12:05:09 PM] ...inside ur: swt
[12:05:11 PM] Feel Good In: let them go far2x away if u wish to have
peace
[12:05:18 PM] ...inside ur: swtswtswt
[12:06:29 PM] ...inside ur: my bunny is too cute/...
[12:06:44 PM] Feel Good In: u think fat blobs are cute!?
[12:06:50 PM] Feel Good In: they are aliens!!!!!!!
[12:06:54 PM] Feel Good In: why cant u accept that!!!!!!!!
[12:07:21 PM] ...inside ur: why cant u accept tht theyre far cuter
than anything u can possibly imagine.
[12:07:37 PM] Feel Good In: my hamsters are definitley cuter
[12:07:57 PM] ...inside ur: 8p thts wht u like to think
[12:08:46 PM] Feel Good In: thats the truth, the whole truth and
nothing but the truth
[12:09:16 PM] ...inside ur: wat? the fact tht my bunnies r cute..
[12:09:35 PM] Feel Good In: the fact that hamsters r cuter than
barbaric alienic fat blobs
[12:09:56 PM] ...inside ur: i didnt see tht'
[12:11:16 PM] ...inside ur: watcha doin>
[12:11:25 PM] Feel Good In: playing games...
[12:11:36 PM] ...inside ur: ah i see'
[12:11:45 PM] Feel Good In: whatr u doin?
[12:12:03 PM] ...inside ur: holding my bunny
[12:12:14 PM] Feel Good In: .......

So yeah, reading through that brings back tonnes of memories of my crazy years in lower secondary. I do hope I can supress the urge to run shrieking into the night during my next encounter with a "rabbit" [alien].

This Time, It's Personal...

I was adamant to have a blog on Blogger although I am already actively writing in my Friendster blog. I don't know why, maybe I'm just obsessive when it comes to blogging or maybe a blogspot seemed so in vogue that I simply must have one! After going through the tedious affairs of registering and creating my blog, I have no idea what to write in it. Reviews, random junk and minute bursts of insanity? Nah, my Friendster blog already covers that pretty well. Well maybe if I have enough time and effort, I will consider posting stuff here that's more personal in the hopes of helping me to rediscover myself. [Okay...] Point is, everybody needs to vent and at certain times, nobody is there to listen to you as you bawl about how much a plate of chicken rice costs you these days, hence blogging was invented. Although I'm a far cry from the type of people who pours their feelings unabashedly on cyberspace, I will try to share as much so that maybe you'll finally understand what's going on in that vacant space inside my head, then again maybe you wont and label me as a lunatic right off the bat. Oh well, I've had enough of my thirty seconds of fame. Until next time, hopefully I come up with something worthwhile! Cheerio!
P.S. Yay, I've finally officiated my blog with a first post, kind of. Yay me! ^_^

Funny Commercials About Malaysian Censorship

I was randomly checking out videos on YouTube and had the laugh of my life when I chanced upon these two commercials making a parody of Malaysian Censorship.






That had me laughing for a good five minutes or so, hope it did the same for you. =D